Hi Nanay, and Happy Birthday to you. I miss you as always and was so happy that you came to visit me in my dreams the other night. It has been almost 26 years since you’ve been gone, but it doesn’t feel like it. It never will. It always feels fresh, far away but fresh. If you were here right now, you know I’d be putting my money together and buying you your favorite things. Desserts! You know how much you love those muffins from mmmmmmuffins. That muffin store is no longer but you know I will still get you the best muffins out there!
Every day I think of you and wished we had more time together and that there was an opportunity for you to meet your three beautiful grandchildren. You would love them dearly and I know you’d teach them Tagalog quick! They know a lot of words anyway and you’d be really impressed with how much I have taught my husband our language. You would be really proud!
I miss you and always been grateful for taking care of me and for treating me as if I was yours. Thank you for being a beautiful, caring and loving mother. Thank you for showing and giving me unconditional love. I love you so much mom and am crying as I write this because I am so lonely without having you in my life. I lost you too early and I don’t know why God took you away so early from me.
It is what it is I guess, but the pain won’t leave, because you’re the love I truly miss.
I am so blessed though to have wonderful children who respect me and have grown up to be such beautiful people inside and out. I have passed on the unconditional love you gave me, onto them.
I love you always, Nanay, may you rest in peace always and continue to look over my family and keep them safe.
PS. I still recite the prayer you have taught me, when I most need it, even though it is is Latin and I don’t know what I’m saying, it still gives me comfort.
Thank you for that Nanay. Happy Birthday. XOXO, your Maritess..
